Saturday 5 November 2011

when mathematician express the love...

0 was me b4 u enter, like a straight line never see end point, be a x without y axis value, then u come bring the y, create me an equation, bend the line graph of me, powering my 0 heart by 0, let me feels infinite emotion, then i differentiate the equation to find ur heart, be around in circle mind, just like a pie never ending values every moment u exist in my mind,

1 by 1, equation with equation, resulted me no answers, bring me to unending calculation, then I stop n start over the question, to look what was I miss the step, as hope an good answer let me dis pointed, I finally realize u also 0 just like me, with how many type of combination, its will never change my zero values, u cant neutralize my negatively charge n sme goes on opposite charge, but however only u can powered me to infinite values, after all u still meaningful to me

kolejku, fakultiku dn impianku

assalamualaikum..

2 months was passes since me enter the university, n conpem la dh berhabuk gle blog aq nie dh since aq msok x terluang mse hendakny meng update blog nie, dh bru la arinie tergerakny hati, terbukany minda, trjalanny tangan nk meng update blog nie, lelagi ade sorg kwn aq nie dok mntk aq post je sejak sebulan lalu, sori la ek lmbt update,huhu....,

prginy aq msok tme raye aidilfitri arito then aq blek umah tme raye korban ( bru aq prasan beza waktu 2 rye nie 2 bulan,haha ). tp tula pejam celik dah lme gak aq kt u aq, bg yg xtaw aq actually kt UTM je, dekat je, x trkeluar pn dri johor nie, negeri penginapan aq, nk blek tiap mnggu pn bole just malas je nk blek tiap mnggu tu yg arinie bru blek,.., then aq brminat la utk post kli nie aq brkongsikn citer2 aq hidup slame skarng kt u aq...

first2 je msok u dh sesat nk ke sejam dok cari kolej aq, hum patot la x jmpe dh letakny hujung penjuru u, perh seksa la aq jwbny nk ke falkuti aq yg terletakny lak tetengah u yg jarakny agk dlm 7 km gak la, sempot law nk jln kaki, elok2 aq kurus jd kurus kering jwbny,...  yg tu ok lg, pstu dok ditmbah la plak ngan ketiadaan kafe kt kolej aq, pebendeny nie, nk mkn je kne gi jln hmpir 2 km, huh mmg aq dtg u nie smate mate nk brjln exercise badan kn.., tp nseb la ble aq msok bilik, tgk bilik single pastu luas lak tu, perh mmg best la, just satu je x best ble tido xde roomate nk kejutkn, pepandai la bangun sndri...

yg tu citer kt kolej, ha skrng kt fakulti lak, aq nie amik sains fizik tulen yg sbnrny aq sndri pn x pasti sgt nape aq amik kos nie, b'cause I more prefer engeneerng, mmg minat dri kecik tp nk wat camne dh aq ditakdirkn amik kos nie, tp xpe, x nyesal pn aq apetak lg ble dh jmpe ahli kuliah aq ( rse cam kelas je kot ) yg seramai 33 org sahaje( dh yg nie jela org yg amik kos pure fzk ) tp tu yg best, lg ckit lg senang nk handle n lg kuat silaturrahim tu coz senng nk kenal sume

msok je kelas tu x macam sblm2 nie cam kt matrik or skolah, kli nie aq lak yg mlekn lgkah pertame, brkenalan, brtegur, menyape ngan budak2 klas aq, make secre rasminy aq dilihat sebagai salah seorg yg hepening.., so ngan erti kate laen, I was changes, even u knows me b4 doesnt meant u stil know me now.., but whatever it is, I stil be someone like u know b4 when we meet, so tula pasal ble kwn lme jmpe aq x pernah prasan aq dh brubah,haha..,

dlm 2 minggu je aq dh rapat gle ngan kekwn aq, mcm dh stahun kenal pn ade, dn banyak dh aq blaja dlm mse singkat nie,antareny :

1 . memahami n menjage hati kwn
2 . erti prasaan cinte n permasalahan dlm cinta
3 . pengorbangan n kasih sayang antare kwn
4 . erti kewujudanku di sisi kwn2 ku
5 . ilmu dn impian
6 . kepimpinan dn pengaturan mse
7 . janji dn penyempurnaanny

sume nie buatkn aq lebih matang , ditambah ngan sesetengah kwn aq yg agk sensitive, aq lebih menjage perbicaraanku, dn bg menutup hati n pandangan mate org, aq meng liar, x henti mengacau dax2 pompuan klas aq, agk tidak aq trapat pd yg satu bg elakny perasaan cinta yg x pasti yg bakal menghalang tujuan serta cita2ku, lg dgn tgk masalah cinte kwn aq sndri, x sggup aq nk hadapiny lak, cukup la sekadar brkawan kn.., actually this was my secrets, tp xpe la memandangkn xde pn dak klas aq yg taw psl blog nie, so xpela aq dok brcerite kat sni,..

dgn slambeny aq memanggil dax2 pompuan syg, brkelakuan seperti pasangan, sesaje mengorat, dh bleh kate playboy la gak, sume ayt2 manis diungkapkn dgn sgaje..., then somedays, someones in myself came n talk to me " stop playing girls heart, how if she truely fall in love, what will u do, as u was seen, that was some difference reaction of them, b4 late, its better u stop it, stop lies on yourself n be yourself, that what u truely are " dgr ayt tu bermain di fikiran, dua tige ari lepas aq hentikn prangai playboy aq nie, aq just kacau ble diorg mulekn tegur aq dlu, n since arito aq cam rse kosong je,..,  tp smlm aq try blek kacau diorg, bru aq prasan, rpeny diorng lebih skekn sikap aq cmnie drpd aq diamkn dri coz dri situ la trcerieny klas, trkecohny kuliah, trukirny senyuman, n trjalinny silaturahin antre kitong satu kos, dn aq decide nk kekalkn sikap aq nie tp dgn syarat aq x berlebihan.

tp papepn yg paling menyeronokkn x laen x bukan bg aq tme study, walaupn skrng agk mmbosankn waktu klas coz kebanyakknny ulangan ape yg dh blaja, tp ble aq dgr aq bakal dilibatkn ngan research2 darahku mebuak buak x sabar menunggu hariny, satu perkata antare minat aq, melihat sandri pembuktian setiap teory, pengaplikasian ilmu dlm hidup, sesungguh aq sedar pilihan aq x silap dn aq sememangny tgh brade di ats landasan, hanya yg tinggal adlh kesanggupan, tekad serta usaha aq untk menuju ke hentian trakhir, medan harapan, kemuncak impian, ruangan cita cita,..., n now just a time will gave the answers depents on your ways

ok la, ini jela bg post kli nie, tu pn dh banyak dh merapu, actually nk letak gambar2 aq kt sne tp aq bru prasan yg aq x amik lgsung pn gmbr2 ditngkap drpd kwn2 aq, xpe la dh xde rezaki nk tunjuk nk wat cmne kn, sekian salam penutup drpd sye, trime kasih sudi membace............